Wow what a week!
With so many changes in my life over the past 3 years, I needed to slow down and sit ‘in it’ in all the changes and think about what they all really mean. I thought what a great time to figure out who am I am and what my purpose is. I am going to blog each week, document my journey, my self discovery, a way for me to find a purpose and get off the hamster wheel.
I have been on this journey of self discovery and personal growth since COVID hit. It started with a Rachel Hollis #90dayreset challenge, a lot of Brene Brown and Richard Brook.
I realized how many self limiting habits I have and how I have accepted them as truths. I accepted those truths with out questioning the why. This course has us reading three times a day, so simple, read out loud, morning noon and night. Read our promise to ourselves, where our life is headed and a scroll from a book, a few short pages. The excuses you find. I started to right down the excuses, this will hopefully be great reading some day.
This made me start to think about the amount of promises you don’t keep to yourself. I have accomplished many things in my life, hard things, great things that others thought were amazing. However, I have also failed on many promises, promises to myself. If I can not love myself enough to keep a promise who am I going to keep a promise to? That I have learned, I keep my promise to everyone but my self. It is time that I take 1 hour a day, keep the promises to myself and ensure that my personal bucket stays full. I have said more than once ‘pick your hard’, for the last 15 years I guess my hard was staying in my comfort zone, getting through day by day with having small kids as my excuse. This is changing. I am making changes.
I thought I was on my way, this week I learned I still have a long way to go. I can do this! I can find my destiny. It is as simple as taking 15 min everyday to still your body, control your body. This is a practice that after 6 days I have not perfected. I will – it will just take more time. I will figure this out.
I am no longer taking accepting living in a daze and going through the motions. Goodbye hamster wheel, hello life! Bring on my promises.
Wherever it Points 